writings

Triple Bliss

Sat, 15 Aug 2009 23:55:01 +0100

"Triple Bliss"

You reach out for my hand in a crowd of too many people
and I
feel your electricity
travel up my arm with the grace of a serpent
you are unaware
that
your
existence has projected itself so seductively
and I'm willingly
asphyxiated
unashamed
your energy has
found its way to the pit of my being
and sparks are flying
as if you were sitting
barbaric
colliding two stones
oblivious to your future creation
your leading me
closer to the rhythm
and the life of the drums permeate my body
our heart beats become one
for unknown reasons our hands become detached
but your man
still sits in my cave
and plays with sparks
instead of fire because
he doesn't know what he's capable of
you disclose the plan to depart
the follower, doesn't inquire
along the path to your domain
you invite others to your gates
and
you're reading me
pleasing me
beyond words
for
you have stolen mine
as your own
and I have no need to speak
see
you say what I'm thinking exactly
and it
excites me
to be understood
before I can even present a matter to be disected
you
accept me, intrinsically
below the full moon
the night flows
and the liquid that has touched my lips
causes all vibrations to
become consciously uninhibited
I stretch my limb out to connect with him
that he may
allow me to lead
through
quiet corridors and darkness
the stones are colliding
but I move with ease
we reach my lover's sanctuary and
you assume the role most natural
resting on his forearms
he pulls me to him
I slide down and
we breathe
on the third exhalation
another energy approaches me
stroking my spine
into arched oblivion
masculine eyes penetrate mine
belonging to the
physical representation of
my King and his
our bodies begin to intertwine
exploring alternate universes of pleasure
warm,
hot,
electric,
magnetic,
orgasmic
moans crescendo
2 falsettos
become simultaneous bass
and one soprano
I guide you both into new realities
a world of universal Love
and goals achieved
bodies explode and release
the three of us breathe
I rise
a royal colored sheet wrapped around my body
like a silken cape
I walk away
having healed the both of you
male lovers set aflame.

I Can See Clearly Now

Fri, 31 Jul 2009 03:21:42 +0100

    What a beautiful experience it is to learn that "you have to actually open your eyes to see what you are asking for." Expectations are the driving force for creating new realities. It is fear that keeps our eyes closed, which could manifest as complete blindness, regarding the vision or the lesson. Then there is Ego that blurs the vision, prohibiting us from connecting with sight of the Higher Self. For the past several days I have been manifesting a new perspective of intimacy, acknowledging the feelings, thoughts, and patterns that I used to operate in, while choosing to accept that, Life wants to embrace, hold and Love me! In this particular experience a King presented him Self in the form of a partner from a "[past] liftetime".
    The unseen factor of this experience is that we had never been intimate before. This fact alone left the door wide open for my Ego. She showed up strongly and intended to completely entice this King! In this moment there was a great resistance between carnal satisfaction and healing or manifestation.
    My thoughts and feelings gently ebbed and flowed like waves. There were moments in which I was disengaged from the experience, another moment where I was reminded that he is "in a relationship", but the other thought, with this particular King, regarded his religious beliefs- which present so many different types of bondage- specifically restriction from sex (fornication), and not engaging in intimacy with other people besides the one you are "committed" to.
    I had no concern for his girlfriend. She does not exist in my physical plane; and living in my Truth, in my own unique moment, is a lesson for anyone, in whatever form it presents itself. I even acknowledge that my actions honored her goddess form by not denying my Self such bliss!
    The morning after, I was simply emotional. I felt the need to cry, though I didn't know why. I could imagine that it was related to this experience. Spirit told me to "dry my eyes so I could SEE clearly." (Afterall, this is the "seeing phase" of moon manifestation.) So, I decided to reach for the phone and see if I could possibly gain clarity. Knowing there was more that this King had to reflect within me.

This is the text conversation and revelation from that following day:

Me: You know that I believe people are reflections of each other. I would like to know more about myself. Can you please be honest about your feelings last night."

    [This was the most simple way I could ask what I was desiring, because I didn't want him to be frustrated or confused. Sometimes I don't use certain vocabulary, in anticipation that people won't understand what I am saying. This is a reflection of how I don't expect to be fully accepted. This is beautiful! Yes! Another area of Self to acknowledge and reshape; to know that all I have to do is present my total Self, and the rest will unfold as it should.
    The night before, he had already told me he felt "down", which, I assumed, meant he felt "guilty". Since I didn't feel "guilty", I knew there was something else to see.]

King: "Didn't you say it's done?"

    [At this response, I was divided. Based on previous interaction I expected him to be distant and non-responsive, but in this new moment, I desired for him to reflect anything that Self needed to see to evolve. This was a beautiful opportunity to clear those old patterns! Yes!]

Me: It is. But it would help to know your feelings so I can at least have a lesson from it."

King; "My feelings left when you said it's done and over, leave it alone. So that's where I am. It was a lesson for me."

    [Wow! In this very moment I realized that he was already reflecting me in everyway. I had already stated that the moment was over and to allow it to be exactly what it was without dwelling on any irrelevant aspects of it.]

Me: I was trying to help you cope with your feelings, because we are friends. Everthing is a lesson for everybody involved. I'm asking as your long time friend."

    [I may have presented concern for his feelings, but again I was, too, concerned about my own. How did I feel to be intimate with someone I was once "in a relationship" with? How did I feel about what he was thinking about me?]

King: "Yeah. I'm over it. Not mad, no hard feelings, nothing crazy.'

    [This was the most beautiful statement, I felt complete peace with it. Not only had he made a clear statement to soothe my Ego, but I found a complete revelation. My past feelings about our "relationship" were irrelevant to our present day interaction, besides the lessons that existed. It was not important to know what he was thinking about me because I create my reality, and I reflect what I feel about my Self. So, in essence I was asking my Self how I felt about Self. In that moment I realized that the Universe had granted my request and given me exactly what I had been desiring. To feel embraced, loved, and held by Life. There are some moments when this Love is felt by Spirit alone, and in some instances a physical being may be the subject, but either way...it is Life, it is Self, it is God fulfilling my intimacy needs! Yes!]

Me: "Ok."

    [I was at peace and completely grateful for the revelation. My answer was simple because my Spirit was calm.]

    It is my desire that sharing my experiences provides specific examples of different concepts. In this particular experience, I intended to honor the importance of "clearing" old feelings, thoughts, and patterns. Another important concept is manifesting new realities through expectations, this is seen within the "law of attraction". The Universe is always in our favor. Either the vision will manifest exactly as you expect it to, or the experience will be completely magnetized! I am grateful for the lessons that bless me in either situation!

Peace, Love, and Light to you!

~Meek~

Some Girls Are Freaks...

Sun, 06 Sep 2009 15:48:50 +0100

    I want to "paint" a beautiful picture for you! An incidence in which the Universe has, once again, brought perspective by way of experience.

    The sun had finally set and allowed the earth to cool a bit. As I made my way through traffic heading for Triad Stage, I told myself, "tonight, I'm not buying drinks...if I drink anything, they will be free of charge." I purchased two Bud Light Limes, which spent all the money I was carrying on me that night, I was content with this small amount of liquid bliss. By the end of the night I had been given a total of 4 extra drinks, for free! YES!
    As the liquid bliss warmed my body, I became more comfortable with my surroundings. Usually, I am uninhibited regardless of the situation, but we all know sometimes there can be some resistance, which perpetuates growth. In which case, there are other ways to relax. Now, everytime I drink I think of Jujumama's post "Blame It On the Alcohol" http://jujumamablog.com/2009/04/14/blame-on-the-alcohol-i-love-it/
    As the DJ spinned endless records the energy in the enclosed space continued to escalate! At times, I would find myself resting upon the wall trying to contain my own energy that was seeking to be released. I was there with friends so the vibe was free flowing. There were moments in which we would find ourselves holding hands in a circle and surrendering our bodies to the mercy of the beat! Anyone who has been around me long enough knows I can be rather verbal with my excitement! YES! Eventually, the energy build was extremely high and I had to rest upon a wall, close my eyes, and fan myself!
    By the time the party was ending, my body had been completely surrended. The artists were wildly freestyling in a circle so close almost everyone was touching! I closed my eyes to try and contain myself, I dropped to my knees pleading for my friends to share my energy! I couldn't handle it on my own, I mean, I could, but I wasn't sure that I should.
    It seemed like I had dropped to my knees right under the spot light, in the middle of the crowd; my body undulating, following the random words of rhyme, a limp magazine in my hand fanning in vain, a backbend that stretched me past my limits, into a new comfort, I was absolutely carefree!

    The next day I received two very alternate responses to what I had portrayed that night. One female friend, expressed that there was another young lady present during the party that was looking at me like I was crazy! My friend expressed that no one really seemed to care what I was doing until the other lady "made a face", and her vibe caused a "dominoe effect" almost. This was funny to me! I reflected on how free I felt and I was content to know that I would have desired to behave the same way, had I not been intoxicated. I also acknowledged that because this young lady had reacted to me this way, it meant that there was an intrinsic part of me that was uncomfortable with what I had done. I accepted this as an opportunity to grow pass this blockage of shame into a place of total self-acceptance.
    The alternate response was from a King! YES! That very next day he expressed exactly what I felt..."I saw you dancing last night..." he said, "you looked so FREE..."! Yes! Thank you King for that reflection!
    Now, with being uninhibited comes a search for balance. A balance between what you are feeling, and what people are perceiving, it gets even more interesting to consider what people are perceiving, when you view it from the perspective of the "law of attraction". So, lately as I have been embracing my more sensual and orgamic nature, my body movement and vocal expression have been open as well. And as I'm wondering, sometimes, not very often, how people perceive me, I have been wondering if people think I'm a FREAK. This is where the Universe begins to bring things into perspective.
    As I'm dealing with these thoughts, I come across another one of Jujumama's posts, "Freak of the Week" http://jujumamablog.com/2009/07/28/freak-of-the-week/ This woman is a goddess! Truly amazing! The thought of her puts me on a completely different level of bliss! As I read this particular post, I was comforted to know I was not the only one experiencing resistance with this word. The definition of the word she shared, based on her experience, is the same today as it was then. Particularly, the words "publicly horny" resonated so strongly! All day I reflected on this word and wondered if that is what I am in essence, and what that would imply.
    Even the dictionary has harsh definitions of this word. The only defintion that would be closely suitable is: "to become wildly excited!" This I could vibe with! Afterall, my bodily and vocal expressions come forth from a place deep within that can not contain such excitement! Now, I have come to a place of peace with this word. I believe that it is one of the many words that we have to subtract the negative connotation from, and make it our own. My new perception of a freak is a person who is able to experience such excitement; uninhibited, care free, sensual, and orgasmic in nature; embracing all of these qualities with love and evolving beyond resistance into a place of growth and ultimate freedom!

I would love to know your comments!

~Meek~

Don't Let True Love Pass You By

Sun, 06 Sep 2009 06:41:05 +0100

        Love exists in all things simultaneously; all people, all environments, and all circumstances. Because Love exists in all circumstances, one must be careful to be conscious of it at all times. In this particular instance, Love manifests as growth.
        I am blessed that my God Self is loving enough to present me with reminders of situations I may not have analyzed; opportunities for growth I may have missed.
       Because I am operating in a state of clarity, I was reminded of a situation that, although happened rather quickly, left an impression for growth.
       The other night I was hanging with this King, he received a phone call. As he proceeded to explain what he was doing to the person on the phone, he said, "I'm chilling with [some] friends...." When I heard him say that, I experienced immediate resistance and discomfort. This experience also transpired prior to the lesson on emotional attachments and [true] universal Love; for that I am so grateful that the Universe brings this experience to mind so that I can apply the lessons.
       As I reflect on that experience, from a clearer state, I realize: I felt undermined, victimized, insignificant. I imagine I could have been questioning, "why would he say [some friends] instead of [a friend]? doesn't he know how emotionally connected I feel to him, how much I care about him? Is he ashamed to be spending time with me?!"
        I definitely had a lot going on in that brief moment and probably would have never realized the potential impact of those old thoughts and feelings.
       Now I have the knowledge of a new paradigm, and I am willing to courageously re-create that experience.
Obviously, in this new paradigm there are "no victims, nor villains", whatever reality he existed in at that time, was (and still is) none of my business; therefore, I am not a victim, only the recipient of a beautiful gift of growth.
        I also acknowledge that everything I was feeling was only a reflection of me. Nothing existing on this physical plane, perceived by the five senses is reality. Such stimuli, is only experienced as truth based on what we have been conditioned to believe. The Truth of our experiences require submission to a Higher consciousness. Now, I must consider what could exist in my life that I am ashamed of.
        I can think of many things I could possibly be ashamed of, but if I'm not mistaken, this is something I cleared before! So I definitely need to clear that residue.
        Perhaps, I am ashamed of my free expression of "love", my tendency to be open to many partners, but bliss is my right, so this is an absolute false idea! This applies, even when I "get involved" with people who "have other attachments". Perhaps, I felt ashamed, as well as undermined and insignificant because I felt an attachment to him, that I have been suspecting is not mutual. I completely acknowledge the several occasions in my life where people have been extremely attached to me, receiving nothing in return!
        Now, I create new feelings! I acknowledge every reaction and feeling I had in that moment based on old thoughts, patterns, and beliefs, I am so thankful and grateful to lovingly operate in a state of consciousness where I realize the growth opportunities of my karma!
        In this moment, I clear all feelings of insignificance, shame, and victimization. I clear all thoughts, patterns, and beliefs that allow such feelings to manifest. I replace, in the clear space, Universal Love, self-acceptance, Truth, importance, and the awareness that this Universal Love allows me to act towards all people in a peaceful and embracing manner; knowing that there is no such thing as physical attachments.
        I open to all educational opportunities to clear any existence of the old paradigm that conflicts with what I now know to be true. I am willing to operate daily in openness, receptivity, and divine Love!